Life is so damn difficult!!! It is good but damn difficult!!!! specially when you need to tell somebody that she gets into your nerves. I did it today nice and firm, explaining myself and starting my phrases with: I feel… tears and phrases like: “I thought we are getting along so well” were present. Myself feeling less than a smashed roach, but thinking: “I said it… now I am not giving up”. This whole maturity thing is just too much for me, things like say what you feel, don’t let others to take advantage of you, defend your work and take the shit that comes with it. Bottom line: Getting old sucks big and huge time!!!

What happened with those days when denial was IN, when throwing a tantrum worked and when people believed in my manipulations. Dysfunctionality I want you back, where did you go?

Since a while ago, well since I started reading Gandhi I have made a resolution, (remember my March resolutions? hahaha they consisted in three items 1) if somebody ask me a favor, I’ll do it no questions ask, 2) Don’t watch any movie already seen, 3) Don’t remember the third. None of them accomplished) well this is something like it, I am telling just the truth. Those days of my compulsive lying are gone (for far so good) and things change when you tell the truth, for real. Lying is fun… it really is and I miss it, but telling the truth as dark as it could be, it makes me feel more connected with people, I don’t need to construct a whole different persona to relate, what you see is what you get, no more no less. Gosh!!! When did this happen? I am probably the least cool people in the planet right now, I feel naked…but happy.